Welcome aboard anniegirl.
Many of us here have suffered the same sense of loss, being cut of from the family.
I find that it does help, reading and commenting here.
Do you have any family who are not jws?
I found an uncle/ aunt and cousins who I had not seen for 30 years.
I must relate that story one day. Our first meet up was like something from a prime time TV show.
They are my closest and dearest family now. That helps alot.
Good luck, and once again welcome.
PS for the religious side, I'm like minimus